My family estrangement journey…
I remember the surreal feeling when my adult daughter rejected the Christian Faith and estranged from me.
The devil had already tried to level me through the loss of my parents, the death of my oldest son and mental health challenges of my youngest child. Then came the estrangement from my daughter.
I felt rejected, betrayed and like I was worthless as a mother.
I cycled between arguing with my daughter and begging her to give me another chance.
I made some wrong choices as a mom, but I had never dreamed one of my children would dislike me to that extent, or want to basically exit my life.
I felt like I had been thrown away and abandoned.
It didn’t help that I had been through years of issues with my own mom, and I had just lost her to cancer.
There was generational trauma that I hadn’t fully unpacked, and I felt emotionally shattered.
I started working with a secular therapist. He was nice enough in some ways, but he let me know that our worldviews were not the same. I felt judged by him because I am a Christian, and the overall environment didn’t feel supportive or emotionally safe.
I fired the therapist. But I had healing work to do, and lots of inner pain to untangle from. “Now what?”
But God.